Increase...decrease

Ashley is a sweet young girl on a missionary trip to Guadeloupe. She is keeping a blog on her experiences while serving the Lord there. She inspires me all the time. One of her recent thoughts was Lord may You increase and we decrease. Increase...decrease - very similar spellings, just a few letters are different; but the magnitude of change using those words can imply. The degree of change can be minimal or maximum. Would you like your salary increased or decreased - we like to think the change would be a great increase. Sometimes I think we overlook a minimal change. Even a minimal change increasing Jesus in our lives can be maximum in results! This year the words joy and surrender have been on my mind (and in my blog) on a very regular basis. When we surrender our will to Jesus, our joy increases. Surrender can bring freedom - not a word we usually associate with surrender. Surrendering to Jesus is the ultimate freedom. God cares about us - He sent His only Son as a baby knowing He would die on a cross for us. Think about that for a moment - could you send your baby to die for someone else? Our oldest son, Scott, was born on Dec. 18th and we brought him home on Christmas Eve. As I sat there feeding him early on Christmas morning with only the tree lights on, I thought of Mary. How it was a moment like this that she held her baby knowing He was the Son of God. She knew He was born to suffer and die to save us all from our sins. As I held Scott, tears ran down my face - I couldn't imagine... Can you? Lord, help me decrease so You can increase in my life. Help me surrender to the joy of Your leadership.

Surely I Will Help You Now

Part of my daily devotion today was called "Surely I Will Help You Now:" This morning may each of us hear the Lord Jesus speak to us, saying, "'I myself will help you.' It's a small thing for Me, as your God, to help you in your time of need, especially when you consider what I've done for you already. What! Not help you? I bought you with My blood. What! Not help you? I died for you, and if I've already done what is greater, will I now not do what is less? Help you? This is the very least I will ever do for you, for I have done much more for you in the past and will do much more for you in the future. "Before the world began I chose you and made the covenant for you. I set My glory aside and become a man for you, and then I laid down My life for you. If I did all this, surely I will help you now...." —Charles Spurgeon

How powerful is this - if God came to earth as a baby and then died for us, how can we ever doubt He will care about what is happening in our lives. I know some people think we shouldn't bother God with the small things in our lives, but I believe God is all about the details. He knows the number of hairs on our head - and for some of us, they are getting fewer every day (ha, ha). How awesome God is! With joy we should surrender to Him, His love, and His plan for our lives. He's got it all under control - we just need to trust Him. Spend time with Jesus today thanking Him for all He has done and is doing for you everyday. Thank you, God, for caring for me...

A Baby changes everything...

Faith Hill has a new song out entitled "A Baby changes everything." I can't get the song or the thoughts about it out of my head. How true it is. Babies change our lives. With the Christmas season fastly approaching, I can't help but think about Baby Jesus and how He changed my life. I have a Savior, hallelujah! Think about Mary & Joseph, the innkeeper, the shepherds - Baby Jesus changed their lives and He can change yours too. Just ask Jesus into your heart - He's waiting to be invited in. Here are the lyrics to the song and a link to the video.

Teenage girl much too young
Unprepared for what's to come
A baby changes everything
Not a ring on her hand
All her dreams and all her plans
A baby changes everything
A baby changes everything

The man she loves she's never touched
How will she keep his trust
A baby changes everything
A baby changes everything
And she cries Ooh
she cries Oh ohhh...

She has to leave, go far away
Heaven knows she can't stay
A baby changes everything
She can feel it's coming soon
There's no place there's no room
A baby changes everything
A baby changes everything

And she cries
And she cries
Oh she cries

Shepherds all gather 'round
Up above the star shines down
A baby changes everything
Choir of angels sing
Glory to the newborn king
A baby changes everything
A baby changes everything
Everything, everything, everything
Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah

My whole life has turned around
I was lost, but now I'm found
A baby changes everything, yeah
A baby changes everything

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2SJigHz4mQk

Let Jesus change you...

The colors of autumn...

The colors of fall are majestic. How can anyone doubt there is a God when we see His handiwork all around us. The colors in any picture ever painted cannot compare with the colors God created. As I looked out the window at church this morning, I thanked God for autumn. How beautiful this earth is, and yet it doesn't compare to the beauty we will see when we get to Heaven. I was also reminded of God's amazing love. If He can care for all of the plants, trees, and animals, surely He can take care of any needs I might have. "How great is our God, sing with me, How great is our God, and all will see How great, How great is our God."

The Potter and the pot...

This week in one of my devotions (this one by Mark Lowry), a couple of sentences just jumped out at me: "And you’ve got to start agreeing with God. You were worth dying for. How do I know? Because God said so. And who are we to disagree with God? The pot doesn't get to tell the Potter what the pot is worth...The Potter tells the pot what the pot is worth. The pot doesn't get a vote..." It is very humbling to think that God thought me worthy of sending His only begotten Son to die for me. God loves me - sinful, overweight, unworthy me. In a world where the media is constantly promoting "the beautiful people" as a benchmark, how amazing to digest the highlighted text above. God has determined our worth - not society and not we ourselves. The Potter (God) determined each of us (the pots) to be so valuable that He would send Jesus to die for us. I cannot even comprehend such love, I must just accept it. I cannot imagine sacrificing my husband, my children or my grandbabies so that others could live. In humbleness and gratitude, I must live my life daily remembering the value The Potter gave me. I must share what The Potter said with others. Do you realize your worth to God? I pray we all will live our lives acknowledging The Potter, His words, and the price He paid for us.

Scattered...

My thoughts have been scattered today. The thoughts in my mind are like lightening bugs on a summer's evening. A bug lights up and catches your attention; and then another lights up, and your concentration is shifted to that one and so on and so on. This weekend I've: been excited to be with friends, missed my hubby while at retreat, played for a wedding bringing back sentimental memories, been concerned about loved ones, been touched by thoughts shared with a friend, reviewed things I have to do this week, been frustrated over things that aren't working, been amazed by my Heavenly Father's whispers to me, been thrilled to spend time with my grandbabies, and been tired. What a broad range of emotions and feelings. The common thread has been the presence of my Heavenly Father. In the midst of my time with friends, I was thanking God for such good ones - while missing my hubby and during the wedding, I was thankful for his love and support - during the frustrating times, I cried out to God - my time with the grandbabies made me thankful and joyful that God allowed me this blessing. There were times that I was busy having other thoughts going through my mind. God just quietly was whispering "my child, it's OK" like a mother or grandmother does to a child when they need comforting. There were times I shed tears out of frustration. Perhaps for the first time this weekend, I feel a sense of peace. In this quiet moment with God, I can hear Him speaking to me: "Be still and know that I am God. Rest in my arms, Diana, it is OK. Just rest." The soothing words to a child who needs comforting. Thank you, Jesus, for loving me. I need you more every day...

Hope

What a wonderful word hope is. The dictionary says: expect, trust, anticipate, wish, look forward to. There are so many things in life to be excited about, but walking with the Lord is the most exciting. My OT life verse is Isaiah 40:31(NIV): "But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." I'm full of hope - expecting, trusting, anticipating, wishing, and looking forward to the great things God has in store. This morning we sang "I Can Only Imagine" which is one of my favorites - I actually light up and feel like my soul is soaring. (I'm sure I'm levitating - just no one on earth can see it. Some of our worship team told me this morning that when we sing this song they have to look at me - they say my face just shows I'm soaring.) It is with hope that I look forward to being in God's presence in Heaven - worshipping Him, loving Him, and enjoying time with Him - "will I dance for You, Jesus? Or in awe of You be still?" God is awesome and it is with HOPE (trust, anticipation, etc.) that I look forward to what God has planned for me tomorrow, the next day, and the day after that! Hope in the Lord and walk with Him daily - there is nothing greater in life - He is life...

Joy

September has been a busy month. It's almost over already. Every day holds some joy for each of us - we just have to be looking for it and recognize it. Some things that have given me joy this month have been: time with my hubby enjoying the countryside, taking pics of barns and fields, seeing the dedication of Ashley to follow God's leading, time with my kids and grandbabies, time with friends, and enjoying God's creation. One day, Nutty (a squirrel in our backyard), came up and sat on the window ledge. I could only see his tail. I said Nutty, look at me and he did. I told him he made me happy just watching him, he looked for a couple of seconds and then off he ran. (Nutty and I have an unusual bond - we give each other joy). John and I were on our way home from church one evening and we topped the hill to see a beautiful sunset. It was as if God had taken a brush and every so softly put in a whisp of a cloud here and there - so light, so airy. The sunset was beautiful with its orange and golden hues, warm, light, but not to bright. It gave me great joy to see the sunset. The colors God has used to paint the earth are magnificent - boundless joy.

Difficulties

Sometimes life is difficult. There are things that happen or don't happen that are hard to understand. Sometimes you just want to run away, but the problems will still be there. It seems stress is a constant in this day and time. It is not always easy to cope with stress. I'm a half glass full type of person and I like to solve problems. There are problems I can't solve. Things I can't change even if I really want to. The only solution left is to trust in God - wait upon the Lord. I recently read that if we don't understand why things are happening the way they are, it's because we don't know all there is to know. Only God knows and He has it under control. Once again, I'm reminded that I must surrender to Him. Pray that I will be able to faithfully surrender myself to Christ...

Passing the baton...

I have been obsessed with watching the Olympics. I take such pride in our Country and appreciate those athletes who train and represent our great Nation. I was definitely a Michael Phelps fan - he's from MD. I think I watched almost around the clock. Pastor Mike preached this past Sunday on Passing the baton. He talked about the Americans (both male & female) dropping the baton in the 4x100 relay race. I saw the races and it was devastating to think these athletes trained so hard and then failed to pass the baton. I was very proud of the girl who ran back, picked up the baton, and finished the race. Pastor Mike talked about us passing the baton onto others. Are we sharing Jesus like we should? Are we sharing Him with our children, our grandchildren, our friends...? I challenge you to pass the baton onto your family, friends, anyone you meet. In Philippians 3: 14 it says, "I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus."

God is all up in this place!

Pastor Mike begins our prayer service with scripture and prayer; then we go to one of the sessions. John and I went to the pray through scripture session. There is always several different sessions in addition to the one we attended tonight: pray in the sanctuary with music playing, pray outside, pray with the Pastor, and pray in the quiet room. We come together again around 7:50 PM and sing a couple songs and join hands and pray a closing prayer. The theme for today was praying for the sick and the lost. Tonight was so special - I could feel God's loving arm around me during the closing. It was so awesome, I can't even explain it. The presence of God was so real you felt it without a doubt. We didn't want to leave. After the service, John Woodruff (one of my young friends) hugged me and said "the outdoor group lifted you up in our prayers tonight." How marvelous, how amazing, how loving that the group of younger people in our church prayed for me tonight by name. It brings tears to my eyes even now as I write this. There is nothing like the love of a family...

Prayer Week

We are having Prayer Week at church. I've had sinusitis and haven't been except for Monday night. We prayed for our Nation - and we need it so with the elections coming up. With the recent weekend at the beach, sitting in the sanctuary praying while music played in the background, my daily devotions and prayer time, I've had the recurring thought of the song "Then Sings My Soul." "Then sings my soul, my Savior, God, to Thee, How great Thou art, How great Thou art..." Check out: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nf0vJiyeLIo to hear it. It's one of my favorite songs to play. To me that's what worship is all about - my soul communing with God. Since I love music, it is a vital part of my worship experience. God is so great, so awesome, so powerful, and so loving. Why do we even fret about anything, He is in control. We just need to rest in His arms, relax, and follow His lead. May I be able to do that every day of my life with my soul singing His praises.

The beach

We just got back from a long weekend in Virginia Beach. It was awesome. Got to see my sister, Dina, which was wonderful. Her hubby, Steve, is off training to drive a big rig. Julie & Cliff went with us. We stayed at a hotel right on the beach. Woke up and went to sleep each night to the wonders of God. There is something very relaxing about the sounds of the waves. Julie did a drawing for a "chalk the walk" event on the cement boardwalk. I might be bragging, but I think she did a great job! She drew "I Dream of Jeannie" pic. We had a blast and were grateful for the relaxing time away.

4th of July weekend

We had a family picnic on Sunday, the 6th of July. We went to Urbana Park and roasted hot dogs. Scott did the grilling and the tables were full of baked beans, pasta salad, potato salad, bowl of mixed fruit, my Mom's great iced tea, lemonade, water, and cokes. For dessert, we had a brownie surprise made and decorated by Chris. Round cookie sheet with brownie, layer of cream cheese filling, banana, strawberries, and a drizzling of chocolate. I could eat one right now. We played in the parking lot - bouncing balls, playing keep away, throwing frizbees (one died - literally cracked up from our playing), and I gave scooter rides to Abby and Stephanie. Chris said I was the biggest kid of all - which I took as a compliment. There are city folks and country folks - we definitely consider ourselves country folks. Chris said city folks come to the park to play in the grass and country folks come to the park to play in the parking lot. After we packed up, we were still standing in the parking lot. Our kids decided we needed to do this at least once a month. So we're looking at August to return to the park. It was a great day of family and fun. Can't wait for the next one. Thanks God for giving us the gift of family.

Time with Scott's girls

We watched Scott's girls - Destiny, Jessica, and Katelyn on Thursday and part of Friday. We had a blast. We made a peach cake and had a marshmallow roast on Friday night. (Julie & Cliff came over to help initiate the new fire pit their gift to John for his birthday.) We talked, laughed, shopped, baked, and thoroughly enjoyed ourselves. It is always good to catch up on what kids are thinking these days. We made some wonderful memories. Have I told you lately how awesome my grandbabies are?

Today is John's birthday

Today is my honey's birthday. He's 56 chronologically, but he says he feels he's in his early 30s. Since I only feel around 28-32, works for me. We had a delightful day. Took a break from our regular breakfast routine, and each had a Dunkin' Donut - oh, so good. I gave him an outfit to wear today. Hung out at home, ran a few errands, and then went to supper at Red Lobster. Going to watch some TV, maybe a movie, and give him the rest of his presents. He's the best! Happy Birthday, honey - I love ya.

Father's Day weekend

I've really got to get back into the swing of blogging. We had a very busy weekend. Thursday night, we went to Pack & Pray to send off our folks going to CityReach 08 in Washington, PA. CityReach is a program where people from all across the Nation go to one church and community to help spread the Word of God. They help the church & community in many ways - Bible schools, construction, yard work, free car washes as an opportunity to share Jesus or at least, give them a pamphlet about the local church, etc. Our young people and leaders always receive a blessing. On Friday, I shopped for John for Father's Day and his birthday is this Wednesday. Saturday, we took all 6 granddaughters to the pool - spent about 3 hours in the pool myself (the whole time the grandbabies were in). My knees and sciatica have been speaking to me ever since, but it was worth it. Sunday (Father's Day), we went to the church in Point of Rocks - one of our "kids" was preaching and asked if I would come play for the service. Dave gave a great sermon on our responsibility to train up children in the ways of the Lord. He applied to anyone who had contact with children. Then we asked Dave, Jill & Jack (their 1 yr old son) to join us at Golden Corral where we met our boys and grandbabies. Cliff & Julie are on the CityReach trip. So we had a total of 13 at lunch seated at 2 tables. Our waitress asked if Jack were our grandson and I said yes. She then said is that all you have. I pointed to the other table and said they're ours too. She said all of them. I said yes. She said she quit after one that was enough. I jokingly said we just said go forth and multiply. She just shook her head. Those of you who read the blog, know we love kids (of all heights) and have many in our "family" - a good number of which we did not give birth to, but we love them none the less. It was a busy time, but the Lord blessed beyond measure. Look for the blessings around you today...

Thankful

We are so thankful to God for protecting us during the storm yesterday. Around 3 PM we had a mighty storm. The lightening, wind, and rain were fierce. We lost power and our phones. After the storm, we surveyed the damage and we're so grateful to God. Our tree by the driveway is at least 30ft tall. It has 3 large branches off the main trunk. The storm broke off one of those branches at the trunk. It landed away from our house toward our neighbor. If it had come toward our house, it would have damaged John's car and our garage. On the other side of our home, a 30 ft pine tree was uprooted and laid down right between our home and our neighbor's. It was our neighbor's tree and our homes are closer together on this side of the house. He got home shortly after the storm, and his first comment was "this is amazing!" It was hard to believe - a sure sign of God's power and protection. We took Mom to get something to eat since we had no power and on the way back we saw a double rainbow - another sign and promise from God. (Hard to see, but over the left top corner of the yellow sign was a piece of the 2nd rainbow.)

Time with family

I'm getting behind in my blogging again. Spent some wonderful time with our family this past week. Had a picnic, went to a parade, and enjoyed talking with each of them. It's amazing what's important to us at different ages in our lives - sometimes we forget. To the 3-yr. old, it might be how many times we can go down the slide; to the 8-yr. old, it might be what candy should I buy; to the tweens, it might be cute boy at 2 o'clock; to the 13-yr old, it might be looking forward to graduating from middle school; to the 20 & 30 yr old, it might be job or personal goals; and to those of us who are older - why is youthful energy wasted on the young! Age is only a number, I think I'm about 8 today, but my body feels like why is youthful energy wasted on the young! And with that being said, I'm off to the grocery store...

Memorial Day Weekend

I was raised in a very patriotic family and have tried to raise our kids the same way. Too often, Memorial Day signifies the beginning of summer and trips to the beach. I'm sure everyone knows someone who has served or is serving in our military. Many know someone who has paid the ultimate price so that we might be free. I hope all who read this blog will take a moment to remember them and to thank God for their service and for those serving now.
Do we take our freedom for granted - I believe we often do.
Do we take our salvation for granted - I believe we often do.
Christ paid the ultimate sacrifice so that we would have everlasting life and freedom - freedom from the death penalty we deserve because of our sin. When we accept Him as our Savior, we are given a tremendous gift. Remember to thank God today too. What an awesome God we serve. What an opportunity each day brings to live for Him - to remember what He did for me and how I will honor Him with my life...

Restore to Me...

Yesterday's church service was wonderful. You could feel the presence of the Lord. One of the songs we sang was Restore To Me:
Restore to me
The joy of Your salvation
Restore to me
The wonders of Your love
Restore to me
The joy of Your salvation
Restore to me
Restore to me
The melody is very pretty and stays with you. I've found myself singing this over and over again. It is so amazing that God loved me so much that He would send His only Son to die for me. I want to live everyday remembering the joy of my salvation. Thank you, God, for loving me and for the gift of music...

Listening is a gift...

Listening is a gift. I wish all doctors had the gift, but they don't. Saw a new doctor yesterday and he definitely didn't have the gift. It seemed the more I tried to explain, the more determined he became to take the conversation in his direction. Frustrating to say the least, but also futile. I was thankful I wouldn't have to spend any more time with him. I did pray to God and ask Him to help me know what to do - which was the proper direction to go next. I'm blessed because my doctors (3 different ones I see on a fairly regular basis) all listen. It's comforting and reassuring to know a person is listening to what you are saying. I took a moment to ask God to forgive me for the times I don't listen to Him. I'm going to try to listen more closely - starting today...

Busy, busy, busy...

Life has been extra busy these past few weeks. Birthdays, anniversarys, Mother's Day, doctors appts., etc. I like to blog on a regular basis and lately it's been more irregular. We've had so much rain. I asked God if it could just rain at night for the next few times because we really needed the sunshine. Today was beautiful. John and I were coming back from Frederick and took a few scenic roads home. I love to look at farms. The fields were just dotted with bright yellow buttercups. It reminded me of being a kid, picking one, and holding it under each other's chin to prove we liked butter. The recent rains have flooded many of the area's creeks and rivers. The Monocacy was way out of its banks. The creek on Peter's Road near our house (not close enough to cause a problem) was right up to the bottom of the bridge. You could tell it had been over the bridge because there were a few limbs teetering on the edge of the bridge. The usual meandering creek was a fury of rushing water today. How quickly things can change in our lives much like the water in the creek. I'm trying to appreciate each day and the beauty of God's handiwork around us.

Time

Time is precious. Whenever I'm with my kids or grandbabies, it is precious time. It always seems to go by so fast. Last night, we spent some time with Scott's girls. Destiny, our first granddaughter, is growing up so fast. I couldn't help remembering how excited we had been when she was born. Jessica is slimming down and starting to develop that "womanly" figure. Katelyn is a free spirit. I let her (Katelyn - who is 8) jump on the bed in the spare room/office last night. Reminded me of the song "No more monkeys jumping on the bed." It was a short visit, but a great one. Hope to spend more time with them tomorrow. I got a new porch swing for my birthday and am looking forward to swinging with my grandbabies.

Thank you, God

We've had many blessings this week: John came through his surgery well - a small cyst in his sinus; spending time with our kids and grandbabies; full moons; and beautiful weather which always makes you feel better. I am so thankful for my family and friends. God has blessed us richly.

Lunch with Mona Leesa

Friends are special blessings God gives to us. I had lunch with Leesa (I've always called her Mona - yes, for Mona Leesa). Mona and I have been friends since she first came to our church (the one I grew up in). We can't remember when we weren't friends - we've been friends for over 30 years. She is Julie's "godmomma" and I'm her Amanda's "godmomma." We hadn't spent time together in a while. We had a wonderful time catching up on our kids and other family while enjoying lunch at El Mariachi on 355. It was delicious and a pretty place. Mona and I have such great memories and are still making memories. Our friendship is extra special - we're like sisters. We have this unique ability to know what the other one is thinking. It drove our husbands a little crazy in the beginning, but now they just say "there they go again."

Ms. Winnie

We've been friends for at least 40 years. When you've been friends that long, you know lots of things about the other person (some not for public disclosure). Ms. Winnie has seen me at my best, my worst, my craziest and even more crazy. We've shared the school drama, dating, and marriage; the joys and challenges of motherhood; the wonder and delight of being a grandmother; and the sadness of losing loved ones. Throughout all these years, there are a couple common threads. We always laugh when we're together and we truly enjoy each other's company. I have some favorite times: morning phone calls while we were each doing our breakfast dishes (after we got our kids off to school), a trip to the zoo, the Kennedy Center, Halloween costumes, Strawberry Festivals, Ms. Piggy & Kermit, and now our monthly get togethers. Time flies when we are together. I always look forward to my Ms. Winnie "fix." Thank you God for Ms. Winnie and the blessing she is in my life!

Older and hopefully wiser

I can remember when I was 9 and my Mom was 30. I thought she was way over the hill - she was more than 3 times as old as me. Isn't it interesting how the math works: My Mom will always be 21 years older than me. At birth - she was 21 times as old as me, at 5 - she was 5+ times as old, at 10 - she was 3+ as old, at 20 - she was 2+ times as old, and now the correlation is back to 21 years older than me. I'm older today, hopefully a little wiser, but not old. Today is my birthday and I'm 59 (never been afraid to tell how old I am). To some some that may seem old, but to me it's only a number. In my head, I'm about 28-32. Age is just a state of mind - my state isn't always good, but it is always young.

Finally back...

Finally, back to blogging. I really like to keep this going, but illness has prevented that of late. Glad to say the doc's appt went as well as could be expected today. Still have to take it a little easy - have to call doc next week and report in. When I asked Dr. Hurtt (his real name, great doctor - really cares about his patients, hunk, etc.) how soon the adhesions would start to grow again, he said they start immediately after I cut them away (scar tissue building on scar tissue). Adhesions are stubborn - they never give up. It reminded me of sin. We try to cut it out of our lives, and it just keeps showing up. I'm thankful I know the Lord and He helps me to resist temptation. I'm definitely not successful all the time - I'd like to think I'm mostly successful, but there are those times I just slip right into it so easily. I'm praying in 2008 I'll be more successful in resisting sin and its temptations. Pray for me. It's so good to be feeling like blogging again.

PS: God has given me the opportunity to welcome 2 new babies into the world recently: Eden Diana (check out the middle name - yes, she's named after me, how exciting) and Karmen Leigh. One more girl due to arrive this month. What miracles babies are.

Good Friday

Today represents the day our Lord died for us. It is beyond imagination what He did for me - to suffer all the indignities of my sins, the beatings, the insults, the separation from His Father when He bore my sin. Tonight there was a full moon, gloriously golden orange (my favorite), early in the evening. We have all heard stories about the man in the moon. Well, I have a different version tonight. When I looked at the beautiful full moon, it was almost as if God was saying I did it for you - I'm here for you - I love you...

Surrender...

I've been thinking about how Jesus surrendered to the will of His Father and went to the cross for you and me. He went there just because of you and me. Just because we exist - not that we did anything outstanding - just because He loves us. I can't imagine the kind of love He has for me - I can't imagine sacrificing one of my kids or grandbabies so that the world could have eternal life. I would like to think I would sacrifice myself for those I love. I can't imagine or understand how Jesus willingly laid on the cross for those who hailed Him and then hurled insults, for those who beat Him, for sinners like me who hurt Him. I want to surrender to the feelings of what Jesus endured for me. I want to surrender to the knowledge that He died for me. I want to totally surrender to LIVE for HIM. I want to surrender to working until He comes again. If you don't know Him, surrender now.

Back among the "living..."

Can't remember the last time I had the flu. It was a doozy. Glad to be back among the "living" and able to go to church tonight. I miss it so when I can't go. The week just isn't the same. Wasn't today a beautiful day - God sure knows how to remind us of His awesomeness.

Got the flu?

Got the flu - I think it should be "the flu got me!" That's what's happening.

A few more facts about Abby

Abby has to rip every single piece of wrapping paper off of a gift before she opens it. Both grandmothers must take her picture every time she opens a present - she will tell us to take one if we don't do it voluntarily. She does different poses - sometimes we see the top of her head or a profile or a peeking pose - one never knows. I'm a woman who loves bargains and the art of the deal. My Dad taught me this at yard sales at a very young age. My Dad would be so proud of Abby. She recently went to a yard sale with her family and her Nanny (other grandmother). Chris, Desiree, and the other girls were ahead of Abby and Nanny. Abby really likes doll babies and spotted a rather large, molded-plastic doll bed. She told her Nanny she wanted it. So Nanny asked the lady how much she wanted for it. The woman replied $25. Abby immediately told the lady "that's too much." Nanny asked the woman if she would take less, but she said she had already lowered the price. Abby - a petite persistent little girl - told her Nanny she really wanted it. Nanny said she only had $15 in her pocket so go ask the lady if she would let you buy it for $15. Abby went up to the lady and said "Here's your $15 and I'm taking my bed." Nanny quickly said that's not what I told her to say. Abby came home with the doll bed for $15. Look out world, here comes Abby (said with pride by her Nonni)...

Time with the Grandbabies

Had a great time with all the grandbabies this weekend. Saturday, Scott's girls (Destiny, Jessica, & Katelyn) came up to the house and we made cookies, had snacks, and talked. It was after midnight when John walked them back down to their Dad's. Then on Sunday, it was Abby's 3rd birthday. We got to see Chris' girls (AJ, Stephanie, & Abby). The grandbabies enjoy being together so there was serious bonding going on. Abby was really into her party. She wore a birthday girl banner, a crown, and had a wand (which of course I told her was magical). We (Abby & I) waved the wand over Poppa's head (bonking the top of his head on the last pass) and said "you must kiss us." We loved it - we also waved it over the pizza to make it disappear. She thoroughly enjoyed opening her presents and even the cards. Julie & Cliff gave her a baby doll which she named Baby Julie. We had a wonderful time being princesses Sunday afternoon. Have I told you lately that I LOVE my grandbabies?

A new song

Found a new song (Untitled Hymn) early this morning that is really speaking to me. It sums up one's life and our need for Jesus. Found this video to go with the song on YouTube - hope it blesses your heart the way it has mine. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cGR944fq-Yg

A Great Friday Night

What a fun night we had. Pastor Mike and Ms. Deb called and invited us over for dinner - spur of the moment thing. Meaghan (their daughter-in-law) joined us. We had a great dinner of cornbread and beans with upside-down pineapple cake for dessert - some of my favorite foods. Then we crossed over into the realm of Sequence. A new game (to us), but one we had heard about from Julie (it's on her birthday list). We laughed and played, and laughed and played, and laughed and played! Since laughing is also one of my favorite things, we had a blast. Can't wait to purchase the game for our house - you should try it!

Happy Valentine's Day

Had a great day spending quality time with my hubby. He bought me candy, a dozen red roses, and earrings - what more could a girl want? John also bought my Mom a single rose - good way to earn those "brownie" points. Valentine's Day is our youngest son's (Chris) birthday. We met him, Desiree, Abby, Julie, and Cliff at the Outback for dinner. It's always great to be with family. Last night in our devotion time, John and I were so thankful for God's love, our love, love of family especially the joy of children and grandchildren, our church family, and friends. What a wonderful world...

In the presence of the Lord

We all know the scripture about where 2 or 3 are gathered, God is in their midst. Sometimes we let church become routine and forget to concentrate on worshipping our Heavenly Father. Yesterday in church, it was so obvious we were in the presence of God. From the time John Yoho gave his windshield analogy to the benediction, I FELT God's presence. John compared a dirty windshield and how it effects our view of the road with how we let things in our life distort our view. We need to clean up our lives and walk closer with God. The music Wes chose, the sermon Pastor Mike preached, the prayers that were prayed, and the worship that we all shared was a time of communion with God. IT WAS AWESOME...

A Positive Attitude

Pastor Mike continued his series on Joseph - the one with the coat of many colors. Joseph had a fairly good life going until his jealous brothers sold him into slavery. He continued to worship God and God blessed him even when he was in slavery and prison. God was preparing Joseph for his future - God's plan for Joseph's life. Joseph was a man with a positive attitude - I like that. I've tried to raise my kids with a positive attitude and teach them anything is possible if you believe - believe in God, believe in yourself, etc. I've tried to share this belief with those around me. I've been around some negative people in my lifetime and I never could understand why they wanted to focus on the negative. It's such a bummer. Through being a widow and serious illness, I tried to focus on the positive. I wasn't always successful especially when widowed at 25 with 2 small boys; but God showed me He had even more blessings for my life. I was happily married the first time, and grief stricken when widowed. I prayed continually for God to send someone into my life to love and be a father to my boys. God blessed me with a wonderful second husband, John, and then blessed us with a beautiful daughter, Julie. I can't imagine not having them in my life. I can't imagine my boys not having a father like John or having a sister. What amazing events! God's plan for our lives is so much better than any plan we come up with. We just need to stay focused on Him and seek His guidance for our lives. Pray for me as I continually seek His will for my life... and look for the positive things in life !

GO FOR IT !

This past Sunday at church, we had a missionary guest speaker, Robert Wallace. Robert talked about God's plan for our lives. How we should pray for God to make it clear and obvious. When God does make it clear, then GO FOR IT ! Robert talked about Moses. I've been in church all my life. I know the story of Moses - have even sung the song "Go Down, Moses." Sometimes you forget the details - just shows I need to read my Bible more - even the familiar stories. God told Moses to ask Pharoah to "let My (God's) people go." Pharoah said no - then came the difficulties for the Egyptians including the plagues and death. The part I never really focused on was how many times Moses went to ask Pharoah to "let My (God's) people go" and Pharoah said "NO." 9 times ! How many times do I give up if something doesn't seem to work out after a couple of times? Sometimes, I'm not sure if maybe I got my wires crossed and it was my will not God's. Maybe I misunderstood. If I'm sure it's God's will, then I should go for it. Pray with me that I will know without a doubt God's will for my life - that I won't take the reins and go "God, I've got this one" or give up when I should go on. I want to grow in my walk with the Lord even more this year...

The Moon

I "love" the moon. My favorite one is a full, orange moon. This week God has blessed me with a most beautiful scene. Each night that we've had a full moon, I've looked in our backyard and seen something amazing. The moonlight was so bright it created shadows of our oak trees on the snow. It was like you were looking at a black and white photo - only better (it was 3 D). I couldn't help but think about how awesome God was to create the moon. I know it has something to do with the ocean waves - which are also one of my favorite creations; but looking at the moon or its effects on the landscape brings me such pleasure. (Not to mention, a full moon is romantic.) In my mind, I imagine people throughout time who have looked up at that same moon. What were they thinking when they looked at the moon? Did Mary and Joseph travel to Bethlehem by a full moon? Did the pilgrims have a full moon to watch as they crossed the ocean? I think of those who explored the West, walking behind covered wagons, and then seeing the full moon over them as they slept beneath their wagons. I think of soldiers around the world who are looking up at the same moon as their loved ones at home. When I looked out the window at the moon and its light this week, I couldn't help but feel that God was bathing the Earth with His night light of love. Each time, I uttered a prayer of thanks to God for giving me the privilege of seeing His beauty here on Earth...

Lunch with Irene and Ms. Jean

Ms. Jean and Irene picked me up about 11:30 for lunch today. We went to the Olive Garden. We had great food and a great time. It's always fun to get together with them. Telling stories about our younger days and sharing present-day experiences. Ms. Jean and I were confessing, but Irene was keeping quiet on her escapades. I really miss seeing them. We grew up together as family and went to the same church. Irene was my first piano teacher even though she's not much older than I am. By some standards, we are in the senior citizen category, but we're young at heart. Most folks would tell you I don't act my age - it's only a number anyway. Since it's only a number, it means I don't have to pay particular attention to it. I really liked the ages between 28 and 32 so some days I chose to "be" that age. Other days, my body reminds me I'm older, but my heart is always young. God gave us beautiful weather to celebrate our friendship today. He is spectacular! (Thought I was wearing out "awesome.") He blesses us with friendships that last a lifetime. I'm thankful for Ms. Jean and Irene. They have played a major part in my life. Can't wait to have lunch with them again. Next time, we are going to get Irene to share voluntarily or we will have to do some detective work. Either way, can't wait until we do it again. Love you ladies!

Surprises

I love surprises. My Mom's 80th birthday was Saturday, the 19th. On Friday, the 11th, Julie & I took Mom to Fredericksburg, VA, for a birthday adventure. We surprised my Mom with my sister being there. We had a wonderful time - went to a tea house for lunch, Bonefish grille for dinner, and spent lots of time playing games and having fun. We had been busy collecting photos, scanning them, sending them to my sister, and she fixed up an album for my Mom. I wrote a poem for the book. That's why in my earlier blog I said I had been so busy, but you'd have to wait to find out why. We had a blast - lots of stories and laughter, a cherished time together. Then yesterday, Chris and his family joined us at Mom's church to surprise her. Irene Mills and I played an offertory as special music. We had a good time worshipping together. So for my Mom's 80th birthday, we had about a 10-day celebration. My Mom said "when you get to be 80, you can't celebrate all in one day." She was surprised and very appreciative of all our efforts - with the usual "you all went overboard" speech. I told her you only turn 80 once. We only turn any age once, but she bought it so I let it stand. Or maybe she just let me off easy this time. Love ya, Mom

Surrender again...

Surrender just keeps reappearing - think God might be sending me a message??? (Read my December 3rd post) My daily devotion talked about surrender again today. How we can be beating our fists on God's chest (probably complaining about something in our lives), and He still has His arms around us. How wonderful it is when we just surrender and relax in His arms. We had our first measurable snow today. I've been longing for snow. It just blankets everything and looks so beautiful. It reminded me of God's love and how He blankets us with His love. Just like He did when He died for us and His blood washed me as white as snow. I know my Heavenly Father loves me and wants His best for me. I just need to surrender and let Him lead me - basically, I need to get out of the way. Lord, help me to surrender to Your will for my life - let Your will blanket me like the snow blankets the ground. And Dad, thanks for the snow - it is BEAUTIFUL !

What a mighty God we serve

I've been thinking about what a mighty God we serve - this phrase is the title of a praise chorus that keeps running through my mind. He is in control and knows the best plan for our lives. Why do we get so caught up in the worldly things? He provides for the birds, the squirrels, and other wild animals, keeps the sun coming up every morning, and keeps us from flying off into space. He surely can handle our everyday needs. I received some flowers from a friend this past week and they still are beautiful. I was looking at them yesterday - each part of the flower is amazing. The colors go from a pale lavendar to a bright yellow - only God could create such beauty. The day lilies (not the official title as Julie would attest) have dark stamen which perfectly contrast again the bright yellow. If God could handle such detail in one simple flower, how can we not rely on Him to take care of us. I remain in awe...

The first week of 2008

It has been a busy time already - you'll have to read future blogs to find out why - it's a secret right now. Amelia, our granddaughter who we affectionately call AJ, turned 12 yesterday. We had a great time at her party. Her parents gave her a bra tucked inside a shirt. She excitedly pulled out the shirt and the bra went flying into the air - much to her embarrassment. We all cracked up. Her party was at Pizza Hut. Well, she quickly grabbed the bra and put it away. Cliff, Julie's hubby, snuck it out when she wasn't looking and held it up over her head to try to get a picture. She looked up and grabbed it. She put it away and then was looking for a safe place to put it. Several people said they would hold it including me. I told her to give it to me and I'd set it on the table. She trusted me - first mistake when there is an opportunity for laughter - serious things I can be trusted. When she was preoccupied, I held it up over her head for her other grandma to snap the picture. AJ grabbed it and announced we were obsessed with that thing. Which only caused us to laugh even more. I also told AJ that there was a table right behind us with two young men sitting at - she just rolled her eyes. Toward the end of the party, a gentleman (who was sitting with two young men) came over to me. He asked how many generations were represented - I said 3. He said he had really enjoyed watching the family interact especially over the one episode (meaning the bra). I told him there is nothing like family and explained AJ was our granddaughter. I said family is one of God's greatest blessings. He quickly agreed. As you know from reading my blog, I love being with my family. And have I told you recently what a joy my grandchildren are and how much I love them? There is nothing like hearing them say, Nonni...

Happy New Year

We had a great New Year's eve. Did some shopping for some upcoming birthdays, grabbed some dinner, and came home to have some sparkling grape juice and watch the ball drop in Time Square. Tonight (New Year's Day), we had our good friends/family, Pastor Mike and Ms. Deb, over for supper. We had a wonderful time eating and visiting together. It was our first time to eat off the new dishes and use the new glasses. Got to say - totally enjoyed the experience. We're going to start getting together on a regular basis. I enjoy cooking especially now that I have a remodeled kitchen and new dishes. It's hard to believe another year has passed so quickly, but exciting to think about all the possibilities and adventures that lie ahead. God is awesome and I know He has great plans for all of us.